I need to reevaluate some things while I’m here.
It’s still Welcome Week here at UMN, classes haven’t started and it’s all about meeting and mingling with as many people as possible.
I’ll be honest with ya, I’m not about the party life. That’s not for me. Yet, it seems like 90% of my dorm is turned up or doing some wacky shit that I’m not comfortable with at all. But if I want to hang out with non-drinkers and the like, they all turn out to be super prudes and that’s not fun at all. You want to take yourself seriously, but not too seriously, you know? That’s why I’m thinking about maybe changing my dorm or major or something just to find more people who are like me. I’m out of the loop completely with theatre people because they’re all in a dorm on the other side of the university. The people in my major, and related fields, are surprisingly more party-types than I expected- this is Computer Science and other STEM stuff. Especially the biology and nursing majors, holy crap. You’d think they wouldn’t want to drink so much because of what it does to your body, being biology and nursing majors, but it’s the opposite somehow? Weird. I just want to be in an environment full of goofball theatre and choir kids who aren’t complete buzzkills and aren’t buzzed every night. Classes haven’t even started yet and I think I need some noise-blocking headphones, all this bass above me right now is too fucking much at this hour. When I find nice people to hang out with, they live at the other side of the school and I have no way to hang with them. My roommate is part of the problem. I don’t have a huge problem with her, but she’s not at all someone I would’ve hung out with in high school. She is really chill, but almost too chill. I think her only weaknesses are blasting country music and being a drinker from time to time. Also the boyfriend is coming over on Sunday and I don’t think I’m ok with that. He’s a year younger than her and from a different high school than where she went. I automatically don’t trust people, a bad habit but also kind of essential in the environment I now live in, so even though some really sweet girls on my floor offered me to sleep in their room when my roommate’s boyfriend is here, I’d rather he didn’t come at all. It’s my room too, my bed, my personal items, my personal space. I don’t want anything violated. If I were her, I wouldn’t bring my boyfriend over your FRESHMAN year when you live with someone else you barely know. Ughghghgh
But I like this school and the programs it has to offer and the city, so I’m not leaving any time soon. I just need to reevaluate what I want to get out of my personal college experience. I’m very academically driven, but I slacked a ton during my senior year of high school because I was always distracted by things. Now that there are more distractions, I need to stay extra focused on my goal of graduating in 4 years. I’m even thinking graduate school. That is, if I don’t change my path completely and pursue the BFA Guthrie Theatre Arts Program or a Vocal Performance degree that both will lead me no where but will fuel my soul and keep me extremely happy. Computer Science is so cool, just today I got a 360 3D scan made of myself and I’m entered in a drawing to win a figurine size 3D printed version of it (terrifying, but still cool). Advances in computer technology just intrigue me sooooooo so much, I want to be a part of it all and soak up all this information. Perhaps maybe I’ll start my own business or go into app development. Having a degree in this field opens so many doors for me to develop my skills and go far in life, while still enjoying what I do. It’s just the FRESHMEN in this dept ughhhh.
SO MANY OPTIONS AND DIFFERENT TURNS MY LIFE COULD TAKE I JUST GHAUKGSTYUKDGYUKGFGJYUKGFGKYULGFGJK
If anyone has any helpful advice for anything college related, feel free to invade my inbox. I need all the help I can get while navigating this strange journey I’m about to embark on. I’m excited and scared and optimistic all at the same time. Things will work out, I just know it!